Silent Wails of Decayed Trust

"......Deokman.... my Deokma..." Bidam's very last words.

“……Deokman…. my Deokman…” Bidam’s very last words.

It might be difficult a task to gain the trust of people; however, it would be more exacting a calling to abandon those people whose confidence you have already earned.

Thus, a person of genuine valor would rather choose to suffer rather than to abandon that person. That person would have faith. Situations might point fingers on that person whom you trust but should you prove your alliance to be strong, faith is the very ingredient that should abound. An alliance, a relationship, a friendship, or coalition, cannot exist for long without faith.

What a tragedy would it be, for genuine fealty to end because one failed to believe enough. One failed to endure and believe. Treacherous blood may cry out in anguish and remorse but such cry would deem to be mute in comparison to the wail of silence. The silent wail of a pure fealty – pure trust and pure love torn apart by the mistake of not having faith. Silent wails indeed will  surely haunt. Sadness and not angst.

All I can hope is that for the other to remain boundlessly faithful. And only by then can silence be broken. Wounds be healed. And though the blood may dry and the smell of death perish from the land, the wounds that caused those blood to drip will surely be healed. The undying faithfulness of a person despite the other party’s failure to believe is indeed a healing potion. It knows no bounds.

And is not that a familiar situation?

This tragic yet victorious story-

Is it not your story?

I believe that it too is my story.

It may take a different page in the annals of what we call history, but your story and my story is I believe, a story drenched by the faithfulness of our KING-GOD-FATHER and also by our constant unfaithfulness.

If only we can believe. If only we can be faithful, what a wondrous fate would that be. A life in abundance indeed.

A thief comes only to steal and to kill and to destroy. I have come so that they may have life and have it in abundance.

John 10:10

This post is inspired by Queen Seon Deok  particularly by the failure of Bidam to trust Deokman.

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Worn Out Feet

After a whole day of unprecedented TO DOs and TO PAYs. – Enrollment

That day I felt like I was so lost! I felt like I am taking a walk to Moriah with all this new weird feelings  all mixed up within me. But woe to me!! Who am I to  lose sight of my purpose- to glorify God – in this so little adversary! O Mildred, think of the missionaries who have to deal with all the hardships of being in a stranger’s land, aware that any bullet can hit them dead, aware that any time they can lose supply and all go starve; and yet they never  lost hope and they persevered and earnestly seek God. O Mildred seek God. Seek God.

After all the errands we spent some few minutes seated at the amphitheatre – thinking, praying, thinking, praying…   I failed  that day but it’s a comfort to know that  God’s grace is new every morning. :’)

Worn out I came to You

Fresh I came out anew

Your grace sustains me

O Father let me see

Thy hand which discipline,

teach, rebuke, comfort and save

O let not my eyes stay closed

Let not the tears go dropping

In ignorance I shall be disclosed

O Father let it be.

This I ask of Thee. This I ask.

O my Mighty God, hear this earnest cry.

Harry Potter, Rebuke to The Church

I would like to quote what Paul Washer said.

Two years ago I read an article from a very well established reformed magazine. It was talking about Harry Potter….. In a way I want you to know that Harry Potter is a rebuke also to the church. When a child reads Harry Potter, they see wonder and wildness, and life, and magic, and struggle, and victory, and defeat, and everything that we’re made up to be. Now, when they see your Christianity all they see is a pew and a cold sermon. God did not come to give us merely correct thinking. He came to give us life!  …. And you can experience that life even if your body is screaming with pain. To feed upon Christ!

 

Here’s a video clip.

 

My Life Song

“I take my time to set the stage. I make sure everything is all in place.”

BEHIND THE SCENES 

by: Francesca Battistelli

You may think
I’m just fine
How could anything
Ever be out of line?

I take my time
To set the stage
To make sure everything
Is all in place

Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words

(Chorus)
Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see
Anything
Through the dark
Surrounding me
And at times I’m unsure
About the ground
Beneath my feet
If it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen
I have peace in knowing it will find me

(Chorus)

You may think I’m just fine
How could anything ever be out of line?

(Chorus)

Students, Do Not Hurry!

Have you noticed how much education has snatched much of our opportunity to learn? If you have not, then I tell you: It can. 

I remember an author once said:

If superficiality is the curse of our age, then HURRY pronounces the spell. Depth always comes slowly.

Do not get me wrong. I am not rebelling against my class schedule which as you can see  is  fully crammed. I accept it as it is. What else can I do? Plus, it came from people of authority and I believe that they are placed there for they know what they’re doing.  Another thing,  people of authority could sometimes get wrong, but it has always been stressed in God’s Word to respect authority. If we are to correct them, correct them politely but I’m in no business to correct them here.

When I look at my sched, I can only sigh not because there is nothing  I can do but because there is much managements to be  done in order to live to that schedule without living a hurried life.What’s wrong with a hurried life? Everything can get wrong in a hurried life – from morning till evening; from your grades to your relationships; from your health to your prayer life. Everything can get wrong. When you live hurriedly, it’s as if you keep on wanting to get things done rather than doing that thing as best you could. When you live in a hurried lifestyle, life would become more of an obligation to get done rather than a gift to be praised for. O how miserable. And that’s the life we students are at risk! O let it not be! –> but it does not depend on our schedules. It depends on us. My friend, it’s okay to be busy but do not hurry. Have you not noticed? Jesus is often busy but He never hurried to get things done.  Depth always comes slowly. I believe that God has given us just enough time to do His will.

Should we then must be able to manage our time well?

O time is gold! It’s precious and it should be managed well indeed but I don’t think that it should be our grand agenda. I think we should first learn to manage ourselves. That for me is one of the hardest hardest agenda. I am  the most untamed creature. Even as I look civil, educated, good, respectable; inside me is a labyrinth of wilderness. I myself has not conquered it. There is but just one Man who has conquered it and He is Jesus Christ. So if we are to plan  to learn how to manage ourselves, O don’t begin without earnestly wrestling the matter with God. Let Him move unto you and initiate every action  step you do. God moves, my friend. And when He does move, He does it quickly so that none can claim, “O I did it myself!”

I suppose most of us has this natural tendency to do things hurriedly – always wanting to get things done rather than to savor the moment and the fact that we are able to do such things. –>Like walking, reading, reporting, studying—> some people are not even privileged to study as we are. My friends, all the more will I urge you and I address this to myself too: We must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from our lives.

Hurry is not of the devil; hurry is the devil.     – Carl Jung

Looking back at the schedule, it seems to me a very hard life to live without rushing through and hurrying through every hour. It’s hard indeed but it shall not be impossible with God’s grace. Now I shall stress prayer. It seems that we took prayer so lightly and even took it for granted. If Jesus Himself said that there is nothing He can do without God, then who do we think we are to go through the day without God? And don’t just tell me that O I have God I just don’t pray that much, for prayer is the way we commune with God. If there is one privilege we Christians must be so happy for, that is our gate pass to the courts of God – gate pass to speak before Him as we are and yet not die; however, so often many people took this for granted and even tire at the time of prayer. O by no means, my friends. Let us not be fooled  into thinking that we can at all do things ‘our’ way and succeed – truly succeed.

I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.    – Martin Luther

We may fail – that is most certain – in our conquest to do every task efficiently yet  unhurriedly; but rest assured my friend that  in the process you will learn and grow and not deteriorate like worn out robots.

– Mildred

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Commit All your ways To The Lord

It’s not always that I got phone calls. Except my mother’s frequent phone calls, I got no other. My phone actually is one of the least valued among my gadgets. If it were not for the music, I suppose it won’t get charged at all.

However today, a friend called me. A dear friend and I’m glad I charged the phone.

A familiar voice and a familiar language – the distinct language of WanPamili Dumaguete – rang unto my ears. O how I miss hearing those talks where God is always involved.

My friend is  currently in a great – somehow- weird test. But as I dug into it just now, what Jesus once said echoed:” On my own, I can do nothing.”

Now listen folks. Jesus Christ is a God-Human. Yet He humbled Himself so low as to say that there is nothing He can do by Himself. I believe that even with all our efforts, if God is not the one initiating whatever action, then it is futile. If Jesus Himself said that there is nothing that He can do by Himself, then how much more us?

Trials, troubles, brokenness,  – they all serve one purpose and that is to send us all to our knees before Him in earnest seeking and prayer. Earnest.

Seek God, my friends. Seek God.

My Old Buddy Without The Mouse

Our Old Computer

Before, I endured a week of keyboardless surfing; now, a night of mouseless surfing.

What is this?

Well, Mildred, it’s just a test of how far you can go with what is given you at the moment.

My younger sister, Maricel, is using my laptop right now and Michelle’s using her’s too, so I have to use our old computer which has not been opened for months already. Poor fellow it has been utterly neglected that we forgot that it has no mouse, and it’s keyboard and CPU’s dust-filled. ( I cleaned it first before I used it.)

I remember ages ago (grade 6)  , when our home first received this Old buddy, I was the happiest kid. It was a day like no other. The computer was the most beautiful thing I thought I could ever behold my eyes on. I’ve always been a techy person watching anime such as Gundam Seed and doing acting replay after. You see, that moment when my old buddy entered our room, it was like heaven.  And here it is now, neglected and replaced by thinner, portable laptops. Poor buddy. But you know what, this Old Buddy of mine has greatly served its purpose. It really has. It is worn out now, but I’m pleased with its mere existence. Now I understand the reason for old people’s “sentimental values” for this Old Buddy of mine reminds me of those glorious days of excellent projects, excellent reports, high grades, pleasing remarks… I couldn’t have done that without the smart programs of this Old buddy. Plus, there were those moments of discovering new software and cool games. It was really fun.

Actually when I first heard the gospel from Bro. Dennis of El Shaddai, my old buddy  helped me greatly in following through what I have just heard. I was confused then and I want to make sure that if I will ever dive into another belief, it better be the real one. I searched and searched and searched. The internet is the most unbiased source of whatever information and you know what happened after I searched and searched? I got even more confused and broken. Ooops I was wrong. Old buddy didn’t really help that much, but it became a useful instrument for me to fill my want to seek something. It’s just that I did not found it through my old buddy. It’s of spiritual realm. It’s of God. It was not that I found Him. It was that He found me.  Altogether, my old buddy has been really useful even till now. I’m actually using my old buddy right now in writing this post. 🙂

It may not sound sensible to you but just for a random thought: It’s a good thing that computers are not like human beings – selfish and arrogant. If it were so, then accomplishing projects would be so so hard because by then, computer would try and try to get the glory for themselves for it is ‘their’ smart programs, ‘their’ software, and ‘their’ work. If they can just talk and talk like us, then maybe they’d complain for the hours of teary work and loads of  memories used up and if this should go on, computers will no longer serve its purpose. The purpose why it’s made will be defeated for they have rebelled.

Funny why I should come up with such an analogy. 🙂 Maybe I’m just missing the fill of typing on this old keyboards. ^_^ But seriously dear readers, I mean it. And those rebellious computers could be you and I. Oh no let me rephrase that. Those rebellious computers are you and I.

God ruled over all of the universe and it obeyed. The stars obeyed. The sun obeyed. The countless galaxies obeyed. The raging mountains obeyed. But when God said to us, “Come.”, we said, “No!”  O how foolish of us! Who do we think we are? gods? We are weightless before the glorious God and yet we dare think that we could ever be equal with God to dare say NO. Because of that rebellion, we have not served our purpose and that is to glorify Him who deserves all glory. Because of rebellion we have been cast out from Him. And in Him alone is their light. Since we have been cast out then their is only darkness in us. Their could be no light in anyone if he is not in Christ Jesus. Because of the rebellion, we are forever condemned to hell. No one is exempted for everyone fall short of His glory. It does not count whether you are the holiest person in the eyes of men or the worst rascal, we all stand in the same ground- condemned but, yes this big BUT: For God so loved the world that He gave His only  Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life(John 3:16). Now that is AMAZING GRACE for us “rebellious computers”! Is it not? O it is my friends. And you would understand more why, when you come to understand what Divine Exchange happened on the cross of Jesus Christ  2,000 years ago.  Read your bible. Buy one.

It is grace. It is His grace so that none of us can boast and seek glory. It is His grace and God be glorified! 🙂 🙂

I hope you come to know Him my friends. 😉 Seek Him. Seek Him most earnestly. It is the only thing that truly matters.