Once upon a time…

Everything is the same.

All system. everything.

I have not searched far enough, dug deep enough nor toiled hard enough but I have come to this conclusion that everything is the same. At the same time, it’s all so different too.

I have just passed my PALS (Pediatric Advanced Life Support) class. And one of the concepts that have remained well in my mind is this: You have to fill the pipe so you can have something to pump and you have to pump what is in the pump to have it going. It’s an easier way of saying that you have to fill the blood vessels with fluid before you can administer vasoconstrictor  to pump it, and you cannot just administer fluid with a weak heart without aiding it with vasoconstrictor to help pump the fluid.

Now, as I was trying to unwind, I resolved to write. I started with “Once upon a time….” and I realized my tank is empty. There is nothing I can pump. Ooops, did I just talk PALS? It’s all the same. Principle wise. Writing, nursing, travelling, investing, cooking, relationships, education, government. The science of it all. But at the same time, it’s way different. Where one ends and one begins, I guess that’s where our persona exist. And here I am just as I am, unable to continue that sentence, “Once upon a time…”

Once upon a time book cover

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Are We Seeing Right?

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It is true what they said that it is when the heart is broken will the eyes will be opened.

People bustle downtown minding there own business – we all have our own sphere called loneliness. Even the liveliest person you could ever name has it. Before, it takes numbers of people to build a kingdom, now a single person can live in its own kingdom of loneliness and be efficient and still have fun because of his/her  virtual bodies. We are in short walking side by side in the same path but in different directions. We neither see nor know each other. And you know why that is? It is because we are looking too close – too close within us – close enough that we are missing the big picture.

The big picture is something that I cannot objectively tell you here. It is something that you have to encounter yourself in your own journey. But, yes there is a but. I want to give you a clue – the big picture is something you can never find in yourself nor with the people around you. It is something we are all privileged to know but only a few dared to see it. And once touched by the truth of this big picture you will never be the same – for you will be ashamed that you even dared look for it deep within you. For it is something that is far greater than we could ever imagine. It is something that we can grasp but never fully grasp. You, my friend, have to go through that old book that you have called the B-I-B-L-E and discover the big picture yourself.

 

You know that you are watching to something that is truly amazing when you have goosebumps.

I watched this for the second time and I still have that same goosebumps when I first watched this.

 

Truly, God is the author and perfecter of our faith. And why, our faith should include believing for that One Person God has prepared for us. Love. What a sublime word to hear especially when you know that it is in the hands of God.

The Great Queen Seon Deok Quotes

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After watching Queen SeonDeok, unlike my experiences with any previous movies or series, I found myself recollecting now and again the words they have said. I groped for the wisdom that they have uttered. I found myself measuring up whether what each character did, paralleled the things they have said. I found few flaws but nevertheless Queen SeonDeok indeed is a brilliant drama. Each word spoken has been carefully thought of. Less often a character may act wrongly or may utter carelessly but even so, it never occurred to me that they are being foolish in any way. They acted with wisdom in accordance to the knowledge that they have.

  • “It shall not be as easy as you believe, nonetheless, try.”
  • Deokman: No success shall come to a nation devoid of dreams.
  • Mishil: The truth is much too cumbersome a prospect for our people; hope is beyond their capacity, dialogue is too vexatious for their feeble minds, and any freedom given will lead them to hesitate. People are pragmatic. And often they display spurious, unreasonable behavior.
  • Mishil: Punishment as cruel and stern as a raging storm, administering any reward with prudence… Those are the very fundamentals of a ruler’s hegemony.
  • Yushin to Deokman: You must have faith in what you believe is right to survive this arduous journey.
  • Lord Chunchu: Would anything pleasant offer you a swift escape?
  • Deokman: Hope can make you overcome all the pain and fatigue. The dreams and hopes of our people shall enrich this nation.
  • Deokman: A ruler who has not time for his people has no right to sit on the throne.
  • Chunchu: History is filled with unprecedented occurances.
  • Chunchu: Juvenile fatuity might influence my views  and becloud my judgment, but nowhere else have I ever seen such a barbaric and frivolous policy.
  • Deokman to mishil: You are the for I can trust more than anyone I know.
  • Mishil: I needed to rediscover my true intents.
  • Deokman; Chunchu is a remarkable young man full of resolve. i believe that wisdom will guide his choice. Unintended as it might have been, Chunchu and I spelled the end for two walls hampering Mishil.
  • Deokman: This new determination shown by Mishil heralds the advent of our strongest foe.
  • Mishil to Chunchu: It is because they did not devote their all to repress me; That is the essence of conflict. Do not mistake subterfuges with mere mind games. To become Queen, my life was drenched with stratagems. i devoted body and soul, my entire life to this. Should my presence daunt you, hold onto me. If revenge is your calling devote your all to vanquish me, like Princess Deokman. Those are the only ways you will ever be able to contend with me. Stake your life to fight me, or else, you perish.
  • Deokman to Chunchu: Arrogance and malice sweltered your soul, your mind captured by all the victims of your impending vengeance…. Since I did not trust anyone, there is nothing that I could start. Let us start together, you and I.

Chunchu to Deokman:  If you mean to embrace me, it will mean accepting my every facet even the vitriol which flows down my veins.

Deokman to Chunchu: What I can do is becoming something that can embrace all those people. Should this embrace be too small to contain all your ambition, you can break free anytime you wish.  Chunchu: Did you shed as many tears as I have?

  • Mishil to Deokman: Our statutes and institutions, they are always a perilous sword with two edges. Not only their foe, but even those wielding it may injure themselves.
  • Misaeng to Mishil: I believe the annals of history will consign you to a luminous legacy. however, this can besmirch everything you have accomplished so far.
  • Yushin to Deokman: But that would be too dangerous.

Deokman to Yushin: I realized today that nothing in life is more dangerous than surviving itself.

  • Deokman: Before the pages of history, we all were nothing but mere pawns.
  • Deokman: Your highness, the talent that I want by my side is not other than you, Mishil.

Mishil: Your triumph must be laden with fierce resistance on my part.

  • Mishil to Lord Seolwon: While you still can fight, fighting is all you can do. and when you no longer can, protecting it you must. When you can no longer protect it, retreat is all it takes. And when retreat is not even an option, surrender is your next best decision. Should even surrender prove impossible, on that day, demise will be your best compeer.

Lord Seolwon to Mishil: Why did you let them weaken you.

Mishil to Lord Seolwon: It did not. Many chapters filled my strategy, and this is merely the final one.

  • Deokman: Mishil, if it hadn’t been for you, I wouldn’t reach this far….. I salute you Mishil… (tears)
  • Deokman: I accorded Gaya my benevolence but they refused ti believe in our future together and instead supported Wolya’s restoration movement.
  • Yushin to Bidam: Obsess over watching the deer, and you will lose sight of the mountain.
  • Deokman: Earning people is such a trifling endeavor.
  • Chunchu referring to Deokman: She is trying to show me that you cannot gain people by your acumen alone. And so are the grandiose achievements she dreams for this country.
  • ….”If people are your only goals, you will only incur danger. Bigger goals, bigger dreams are what you should aspire for.”
  • Bidam to Deokman: So why have you changed?

Deokman to Bidam: For I have no name. Princess, Crown Princess… even the scoundrels parading in the market have a name yet a rules does not. All I am is “Her Majesty.” Nobody cann call my name now. Calling my name means treason. Bidam, only you think of me as a person- as a woman.

  • Deokman: I therefore, admit my responsibility in creating this conflict. However, my convictions are firm. In war, it is the country whose people enjoy the most stability that will triumph in the end.
  • Bidam: You are like a horse on the chessboard of history, but I am not. That is why the Master said this book belongs to you.
  • Deokman: this unification is a war of endurance which might last for ten, a hundred years. It is not a matter of strategy or military power. That endurance only comes from one’s people.
  • Deokman: Gaining people’s trust might be harder than gaining all creation. But, what is harder than gaining people’s trust is having to abandon them.
  • Chunchu: Fear is an offspring of the unknown.
  • Chunchu to Bidam: Devotion has blinded you to the point of obscuring your path.
  • Chunchu: Bidam, it is most regrettable for you. But there is no page in history for a man driven by devotion.
  • Yeomjong: You are the only one who can bring destruction upon yourself.
  • Queen SeonDeok to Young Deokman: Deokman… the path ahead of you will be arduous and it will be painful. You will lose beloved ones, and experience utmost loneliness. It will be more barren and dim than in the dessert. For it will seem like you have the world, but in truth you will not be able to gain anything. But still you must endure it. All right? Endure it. Endure it to the end.

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