Such Love

Love knows no intelligence nor any boundaries. Not even the prison cell nor death doors could keep it at bay.

Such love that not even silence can capture

The sentence comes in separate words

Bridge of deep waters separate one from the other

When the sound was released, it lingers but it never stays

Not even the silent field can contain it.

I grasped for breath beneath the cold air

My words are many years old

But they never rusted even if –

Now is the first time I have really used it –

Now that we part.

And you didn’t even get to hear it –

I. LOVE. YOU.

This poem was inspired by the movie Miracle at Cell Number 7. 

After watching the movie, I realize that Love indeed is the greatest good.

The Dream that Begins and Ends The Journey

Grown-up Deokman to Child Deokman

Deokman…. the path ahead of you will be arduous and it will be painful. You will lose beloved ones, and experience utmost loneliness. It will be more barren and dim than in the dessert. For it will seem like you have the world, but in truth you will not be able to gain anything. But still you must endure it. All right? Endure it. Endure it to the end.

“Endure it. Endure it all to the end.”

“Who are you? What are you doing?”

Open My Eyes

Saviour of my soul
I worship You as God alone
Greater love has made a way to You

I could not forget
The moment I in faith confessed
For my sin You died and rose again

I believe every word You say
Father God with all my heart I sing

Open my eyes
I want to see Your glory Your glory Lord
I open my heart
I want to be closer closer to You

Here I am again
I find my strength in drawing near
You have heard the desperate cry in me

And as I wait on You my God
I’ll know the voice of truth
In quietness I am in awe
And as I worship You my Lord
I understand the cross
The sacrifice of God

Blankly, my stare pierced that hall way
While this song broke my weary heart

Worn Out Feet

After a whole day of unprecedented TO DOs and TO PAYs. – Enrollment

That day I felt like I was so lost! I felt like I am taking a walk to Moriah with all this new weird feelings  all mixed up within me. But woe to me!! Who am I to  lose sight of my purpose- to glorify God – in this so little adversary! O Mildred, think of the missionaries who have to deal with all the hardships of being in a stranger’s land, aware that any bullet can hit them dead, aware that any time they can lose supply and all go starve; and yet they never  lost hope and they persevered and earnestly seek God. O Mildred seek God. Seek God.

After all the errands we spent some few minutes seated at the amphitheatre – thinking, praying, thinking, praying…   I failed  that day but it’s a comfort to know that  God’s grace is new every morning. :’)

Worn out I came to You

Fresh I came out anew

Your grace sustains me

O Father let me see

Thy hand which discipline,

teach, rebuke, comfort and save

O let not my eyes stay closed

Let not the tears go dropping

In ignorance I shall be disclosed

O Father let it be.

This I ask of Thee. This I ask.

O my Mighty God, hear this earnest cry.

My Life Song

“I take my time to set the stage. I make sure everything is all in place.”

BEHIND THE SCENES 

by: Francesca Battistelli

You may think
I’m just fine
How could anything
Ever be out of line?

I take my time
To set the stage
To make sure everything
Is all in place

Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words

(Chorus)
Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see
Anything
Through the dark
Surrounding me
And at times I’m unsure
About the ground
Beneath my feet
If it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen
I have peace in knowing it will find me

(Chorus)

You may think I’m just fine
How could anything ever be out of line?

(Chorus)

Back Stage

People come and go

Meringue of faces off they go

Few remained to know

behind the scenes’  a bigger show

O the act was no act

 The show was no show

Twas life expressed on stage

What was repressed  back stage.

Voices need mouth to speak

Yet back stage, no ear hears

The truth suppressed  – all in silent recoil

It’s  just on stage where no one recognize

That true pain’s applauded by all.

Students, Do Not Hurry!

Have you noticed how much education has snatched much of our opportunity to learn? If you have not, then I tell you: It can. 

I remember an author once said:

If superficiality is the curse of our age, then HURRY pronounces the spell. Depth always comes slowly.

Do not get me wrong. I am not rebelling against my class schedule which as you can see  is  fully crammed. I accept it as it is. What else can I do? Plus, it came from people of authority and I believe that they are placed there for they know what they’re doing.  Another thing,  people of authority could sometimes get wrong, but it has always been stressed in God’s Word to respect authority. If we are to correct them, correct them politely but I’m in no business to correct them here.

When I look at my sched, I can only sigh not because there is nothing  I can do but because there is much managements to be  done in order to live to that schedule without living a hurried life.What’s wrong with a hurried life? Everything can get wrong in a hurried life – from morning till evening; from your grades to your relationships; from your health to your prayer life. Everything can get wrong. When you live hurriedly, it’s as if you keep on wanting to get things done rather than doing that thing as best you could. When you live in a hurried lifestyle, life would become more of an obligation to get done rather than a gift to be praised for. O how miserable. And that’s the life we students are at risk! O let it not be! –> but it does not depend on our schedules. It depends on us. My friend, it’s okay to be busy but do not hurry. Have you not noticed? Jesus is often busy but He never hurried to get things done.  Depth always comes slowly. I believe that God has given us just enough time to do His will.

Should we then must be able to manage our time well?

O time is gold! It’s precious and it should be managed well indeed but I don’t think that it should be our grand agenda. I think we should first learn to manage ourselves. That for me is one of the hardest hardest agenda. I am  the most untamed creature. Even as I look civil, educated, good, respectable; inside me is a labyrinth of wilderness. I myself has not conquered it. There is but just one Man who has conquered it and He is Jesus Christ. So if we are to plan  to learn how to manage ourselves, O don’t begin without earnestly wrestling the matter with God. Let Him move unto you and initiate every action  step you do. God moves, my friend. And when He does move, He does it quickly so that none can claim, “O I did it myself!”

I suppose most of us has this natural tendency to do things hurriedly – always wanting to get things done rather than to savor the moment and the fact that we are able to do such things. –>Like walking, reading, reporting, studying—> some people are not even privileged to study as we are. My friends, all the more will I urge you and I address this to myself too: We must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from our lives.

Hurry is not of the devil; hurry is the devil.     – Carl Jung

Looking back at the schedule, it seems to me a very hard life to live without rushing through and hurrying through every hour. It’s hard indeed but it shall not be impossible with God’s grace. Now I shall stress prayer. It seems that we took prayer so lightly and even took it for granted. If Jesus Himself said that there is nothing He can do without God, then who do we think we are to go through the day without God? And don’t just tell me that O I have God I just don’t pray that much, for prayer is the way we commune with God. If there is one privilege we Christians must be so happy for, that is our gate pass to the courts of God – gate pass to speak before Him as we are and yet not die; however, so often many people took this for granted and even tire at the time of prayer. O by no means, my friends. Let us not be fooled  into thinking that we can at all do things ‘our’ way and succeed – truly succeed.

I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.    – Martin Luther

We may fail – that is most certain – in our conquest to do every task efficiently yet  unhurriedly; but rest assured my friend that  in the process you will learn and grow and not deteriorate like worn out robots.

– Mildred

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Watch Thy Self Physician

O King, do You recognize me?

Am I a blot  from Thy sight?

O I proclaim Thy name  to dead men

But I wanna make sure that I know You

But most importantly that You know me.

O dear God, I deserve not to be in Thy courts

To be received nor to be listened to.

But O God, hear me. Hear my desperate call.

Move into my life God. Move.

Dear God, save me from the peril of SELF.

O snatch me away from me.

Rid me of me. Alter Thy servant inside out.

This O God, I earnestly ask of You in Jesus’ name, Amen.

My Old Buddy Without The Mouse

Our Old Computer

Before, I endured a week of keyboardless surfing; now, a night of mouseless surfing.

What is this?

Well, Mildred, it’s just a test of how far you can go with what is given you at the moment.

My younger sister, Maricel, is using my laptop right now and Michelle’s using her’s too, so I have to use our old computer which has not been opened for months already. Poor fellow it has been utterly neglected that we forgot that it has no mouse, and it’s keyboard and CPU’s dust-filled. ( I cleaned it first before I used it.)

I remember ages ago (grade 6)  , when our home first received this Old buddy, I was the happiest kid. It was a day like no other. The computer was the most beautiful thing I thought I could ever behold my eyes on. I’ve always been a techy person watching anime such as Gundam Seed and doing acting replay after. You see, that moment when my old buddy entered our room, it was like heaven.  And here it is now, neglected and replaced by thinner, portable laptops. Poor buddy. But you know what, this Old Buddy of mine has greatly served its purpose. It really has. It is worn out now, but I’m pleased with its mere existence. Now I understand the reason for old people’s “sentimental values” for this Old Buddy of mine reminds me of those glorious days of excellent projects, excellent reports, high grades, pleasing remarks… I couldn’t have done that without the smart programs of this Old buddy. Plus, there were those moments of discovering new software and cool games. It was really fun.

Actually when I first heard the gospel from Bro. Dennis of El Shaddai, my old buddy  helped me greatly in following through what I have just heard. I was confused then and I want to make sure that if I will ever dive into another belief, it better be the real one. I searched and searched and searched. The internet is the most unbiased source of whatever information and you know what happened after I searched and searched? I got even more confused and broken. Ooops I was wrong. Old buddy didn’t really help that much, but it became a useful instrument for me to fill my want to seek something. It’s just that I did not found it through my old buddy. It’s of spiritual realm. It’s of God. It was not that I found Him. It was that He found me.  Altogether, my old buddy has been really useful even till now. I’m actually using my old buddy right now in writing this post. 🙂

It may not sound sensible to you but just for a random thought: It’s a good thing that computers are not like human beings – selfish and arrogant. If it were so, then accomplishing projects would be so so hard because by then, computer would try and try to get the glory for themselves for it is ‘their’ smart programs, ‘their’ software, and ‘their’ work. If they can just talk and talk like us, then maybe they’d complain for the hours of teary work and loads of  memories used up and if this should go on, computers will no longer serve its purpose. The purpose why it’s made will be defeated for they have rebelled.

Funny why I should come up with such an analogy. 🙂 Maybe I’m just missing the fill of typing on this old keyboards. ^_^ But seriously dear readers, I mean it. And those rebellious computers could be you and I. Oh no let me rephrase that. Those rebellious computers are you and I.

God ruled over all of the universe and it obeyed. The stars obeyed. The sun obeyed. The countless galaxies obeyed. The raging mountains obeyed. But when God said to us, “Come.”, we said, “No!”  O how foolish of us! Who do we think we are? gods? We are weightless before the glorious God and yet we dare think that we could ever be equal with God to dare say NO. Because of that rebellion, we have not served our purpose and that is to glorify Him who deserves all glory. Because of rebellion we have been cast out from Him. And in Him alone is their light. Since we have been cast out then their is only darkness in us. Their could be no light in anyone if he is not in Christ Jesus. Because of the rebellion, we are forever condemned to hell. No one is exempted for everyone fall short of His glory. It does not count whether you are the holiest person in the eyes of men or the worst rascal, we all stand in the same ground- condemned but, yes this big BUT: For God so loved the world that He gave His only  Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life(John 3:16). Now that is AMAZING GRACE for us “rebellious computers”! Is it not? O it is my friends. And you would understand more why, when you come to understand what Divine Exchange happened on the cross of Jesus Christ  2,000 years ago.  Read your bible. Buy one.

It is grace. It is His grace so that none of us can boast and seek glory. It is His grace and God be glorified! 🙂 🙂

I hope you come to know Him my friends. 😉 Seek Him. Seek Him most earnestly. It is the only thing that truly matters.