The Choice I Made

At this point in time, I am about to make a very important decision. For weeks and weeks I have been stranded in the reverie of the fantasy and hellish consequences of either paths which lead me to be so hesitant to take a step forward to either road. It is scary and exciting. I sought books, I asked God, read the Bible, listened to debates. Then I made a choice. I realized that life can have so many what ifs, but at the end of the day we have to make a choice – and yes at the end of the day, I choose to honor God. I choose to honor God. Thus, I hope and pray, that even though my feeble mind tends to view things wrong, I hope that this time I had this right. This time, Father, may you be honored and glorified with the decision I have made. It may be an unpopular decision, but it is the most sincere choice I can make – full of love, and selfless devotion. Father, I offer this decision to you. May you help me set sail this boat I am in, and please help me meet and overcome the storm I will yet to face. Thank you, Yahweh Elohim.

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Such Love

Love knows no intelligence nor any boundaries. Not even the prison cell nor death doors could keep it at bay.

Such love that not even silence can capture

The sentence comes in separate words

Bridge of deep waters separate one from the other

When the sound was released, it lingers but it never stays

Not even the silent field can contain it.

I grasped for breath beneath the cold air

My words are many years old

But they never rusted even if –

Now is the first time I have really used it –

Now that we part.

And you didn’t even get to hear it –

I. LOVE. YOU.

This poem was inspired by the movie Miracle at Cell Number 7. 

After watching the movie, I realize that Love indeed is the greatest good.

Inspired by THE INKLINGS

THE INKLINGS – an informal writer’s group in UK that usually meet at pubs to discuss story ideas. Most of their stories were mythical and involved elves, dwarfs, fairies, powers, and all the drama of the fight between good and evil. Some of the great authors – C.S. Lewis and J.R.R Tolkien – were part of the INKLING.

As I read Lewis Chronicles of Narnia, I began to see something fairly important in his work. I see now that it’s myth but in almost every respect, it speaks of reality but in a far louder voice than any of the most books that have reality as its setting and theme. Lewis’ book is myth/fantasy/ fairy tale, whatever you call it – with talking animals and secret passages to a different world. It’s myth BUT it’s truer than most fiction that holds realistic settings. It’s a child’s favorite book but it has more substance. It’s a great book for that matter. And I believe part of the factor is that because it is fantasy and real… and because it passed great minds (the inklings) before it was even written.

Inspired by this, I think I’m gonna consider writing FANTASY 🙂

And perhaps, consider being part of an “INKLING”  🙂 say, we create one?

Who’s one with me?

Worn Out Feet

After a whole day of unprecedented TO DOs and TO PAYs. – Enrollment

That day I felt like I was so lost! I felt like I am taking a walk to Moriah with all this new weird feelings  all mixed up within me. But woe to me!! Who am I to  lose sight of my purpose- to glorify God – in this so little adversary! O Mildred, think of the missionaries who have to deal with all the hardships of being in a stranger’s land, aware that any bullet can hit them dead, aware that any time they can lose supply and all go starve; and yet they never  lost hope and they persevered and earnestly seek God. O Mildred seek God. Seek God.

After all the errands we spent some few minutes seated at the amphitheatre – thinking, praying, thinking, praying…   I failed  that day but it’s a comfort to know that  God’s grace is new every morning. :’)

Worn out I came to You

Fresh I came out anew

Your grace sustains me

O Father let me see

Thy hand which discipline,

teach, rebuke, comfort and save

O let not my eyes stay closed

Let not the tears go dropping

In ignorance I shall be disclosed

O Father let it be.

This I ask of Thee. This I ask.

O my Mighty God, hear this earnest cry.

My Life Song

“I take my time to set the stage. I make sure everything is all in place.”

BEHIND THE SCENES 

by: Francesca Battistelli

You may think
I’m just fine
How could anything
Ever be out of line?

I take my time
To set the stage
To make sure everything
Is all in place

Even though I’ve got the lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words

(Chorus)
Things aren’t always what they seem
You’re only seeing part of me
There’s more than you could ever know
Behind the scenes
I’m incomplete and I’m undone
But I suppose like everyone
There’s so much more that’s going on
Behind the scenes

Sometimes I can’t see
Anything
Through the dark
Surrounding me
And at times I’m unsure
About the ground
Beneath my feet
If it’s safe and sound

When it’s hard to find hope in the unseen
I have peace in knowing it will find me

(Chorus)

You may think I’m just fine
How could anything ever be out of line?

(Chorus)

Students, Do Not Hurry!

Have you noticed how much education has snatched much of our opportunity to learn? If you have not, then I tell you: It can. 

I remember an author once said:

If superficiality is the curse of our age, then HURRY pronounces the spell. Depth always comes slowly.

Do not get me wrong. I am not rebelling against my class schedule which as you can see  is  fully crammed. I accept it as it is. What else can I do? Plus, it came from people of authority and I believe that they are placed there for they know what they’re doing.  Another thing,  people of authority could sometimes get wrong, but it has always been stressed in God’s Word to respect authority. If we are to correct them, correct them politely but I’m in no business to correct them here.

When I look at my sched, I can only sigh not because there is nothing  I can do but because there is much managements to be  done in order to live to that schedule without living a hurried life.What’s wrong with a hurried life? Everything can get wrong in a hurried life – from morning till evening; from your grades to your relationships; from your health to your prayer life. Everything can get wrong. When you live hurriedly, it’s as if you keep on wanting to get things done rather than doing that thing as best you could. When you live in a hurried lifestyle, life would become more of an obligation to get done rather than a gift to be praised for. O how miserable. And that’s the life we students are at risk! O let it not be! –> but it does not depend on our schedules. It depends on us. My friend, it’s okay to be busy but do not hurry. Have you not noticed? Jesus is often busy but He never hurried to get things done.  Depth always comes slowly. I believe that God has given us just enough time to do His will.

Should we then must be able to manage our time well?

O time is gold! It’s precious and it should be managed well indeed but I don’t think that it should be our grand agenda. I think we should first learn to manage ourselves. That for me is one of the hardest hardest agenda. I am  the most untamed creature. Even as I look civil, educated, good, respectable; inside me is a labyrinth of wilderness. I myself has not conquered it. There is but just one Man who has conquered it and He is Jesus Christ. So if we are to plan  to learn how to manage ourselves, O don’t begin without earnestly wrestling the matter with God. Let Him move unto you and initiate every action  step you do. God moves, my friend. And when He does move, He does it quickly so that none can claim, “O I did it myself!”

I suppose most of us has this natural tendency to do things hurriedly – always wanting to get things done rather than to savor the moment and the fact that we are able to do such things. –>Like walking, reading, reporting, studying—> some people are not even privileged to study as we are. My friends, all the more will I urge you and I address this to myself too: We must ruthlessly eliminate hurry from our lives.

Hurry is not of the devil; hurry is the devil.     – Carl Jung

Looking back at the schedule, it seems to me a very hard life to live without rushing through and hurrying through every hour. It’s hard indeed but it shall not be impossible with God’s grace. Now I shall stress prayer. It seems that we took prayer so lightly and even took it for granted. If Jesus Himself said that there is nothing He can do without God, then who do we think we are to go through the day without God? And don’t just tell me that O I have God I just don’t pray that much, for prayer is the way we commune with God. If there is one privilege we Christians must be so happy for, that is our gate pass to the courts of God – gate pass to speak before Him as we are and yet not die; however, so often many people took this for granted and even tire at the time of prayer. O by no means, my friends. Let us not be fooled  into thinking that we can at all do things ‘our’ way and succeed – truly succeed.

I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer.    – Martin Luther

We may fail – that is most certain – in our conquest to do every task efficiently yet  unhurriedly; but rest assured my friend that  in the process you will learn and grow and not deteriorate like worn out robots.

– Mildred

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A NEW START

Finally, after more than an hour deciding whether  I should take blogspot, wordpress or weebly, I’ve made up my mind – my indecisive mind. It ‘s WordPress! Yey!

For almost a year, I’ve been jumping from one blog to another and that’s a total of seven blogs if I should count my netlog along. I felt like chasing winds and pursuing two rabbits and I gained nothing. It’s tiresome to have so many blogs. Now, I shall settle to ONE. And this is it. I’ll make what I can with wordpress.  Whether this is the best blogging site or not, I shall not care anymore. I have made my decision.  Plus, if it is really blogging that I am after, then what I should busy myself should be ‘blogging’ and not tore myself on some three hours spent on customizing an empty blog.

Dear friends, this a grand new start. I shall welcome myself to the blogosphere. It’s nice to be amongst you bloggers.